Be Firm With What You Hold

Alowp.. Assalamualaikum.. Hye guys!
It's been so long since I last updated my beloved.
Few months ago, one of my adik dorm suddenly pm, tanya bila Kak Hajar nak update blog?
Sumpah tak sangka ada gak orang baca. Haha! Thanks Aini!
Lil. update bout my life, Alhamdulillah currently tengah struggle final Semester 8.
Yup, sem 8 dah! Rasa cam baru semalam jejak Masjid Al-Azhar dengan kaki melecet sebab pakai heels kat Cairo.
Piece of advice, DO NOT! ever think of wearing heels while you're travelling, especially in Cairo.
Who did that? right? Well I DID. LOL.

Today I feel the urge to update sebab tetiba rasa down sangat.
First off, Hogor tengah dalam fatrah imtihan sekarang ni. (gitchew, baru lah belajar Mesiaq)
Baru habis 3 paper, which means.. 5 more papers to go. *YAY! (=_=;)
Exams during Ramadhan is veeery challenging, guys.
Tambah lagi Alex baru kena heat wave last week.
The whole week, dia main 37-40 degree je. Bukak kipas pun angin panas.
Next paper, Medicinal Chemistry 2. (I passed Med Chem 1, Alhamdulillahhh for that!)
And this, is the main reason kenapa Hogor rasa down sekarang ni.
If you're in this field, you'll probably know that Medicinal Chemistry is the epitome of tough subjects in Pharmacy.
It's literally the combination of Organic Chemistry and Pharmacology, which bila kau tanya dak Medic they'll definitely say Pharmacology is the pain in the ass. Haha!
Well guys, ni kita tengah sembang pasal Abah dia. Just a little glimpse.

Phenothiazines, Drugs to treat Schizophrenia. Sembang pasal structure dia kalau tambah satu Carbon kat Position 3,4 jadi less active, macam mana nak buat dia gi kat Muscarinic receptor blablabla.

These are what we call Structure Activity Relationship.
Dalam exam, even in oral exam, memang Dr. bagi Chemical Structure semata.
Pastu dia mintak explain semua benda, menatang ni buat apa dalam badan? Camna dia ni metabolized and so on..
SEE? Macam mana tak down?
Kalau korang betul-betul kenal, mesti tau... Seorang Hogor dan Chemistry masa zaman SPM dulu macam mana. Dia punya paranoid tu, belum jawab exam dah melalak.
Bila recall balik, sepanjang zaman SPM tu dok ulang,
 "Lepas ni tak nak ada kaitan dengan Chemistry & Bahasa Arab dah"
Sebab sepanjang form 4, TAK PERNAH LULUS BAHASA ARAB, CHEMISTRY & ADD MATHS.
Ditakdirkan Allah, "I'm done with Chemistry" yang orang tu dok zikir dulu dah jadi bidang dia.
Damn, I shouldn't have said that in the first place. Now they're haunting me.

Tetiba my sis bagi ayat,

"Be firm with what you hold. Love what you studies. Ilmu ni macam ada nyawa. Kalau kita tak suka, dia pun tak suka kita balik. Kalau kita sayang dia, dia pun sayang kita balik. Sesusah mana pun ilmu tu, think of it as the way we learn to give benefits to others."

She got me like WOAH.. Pandai dah adik Hogor sekarang ni! Patleper in Law. I'm so proud of you.
Dari Form 1, cita-cita asal nak jadi Lawyer.
Sempat tak kalau nak buat double degree? *HAH! Yang satu ni pun dah azab nak habiskan.
Bila tak dapat apa yang kita nak..
Kena selalu ingat yang kita merancang, Allah pun merancang.
Tapi Allah lah sebaik-baik perancang.
Sebab boleh jadi benda yang kita suka sangat tu tak baik untuk kita.
Boleh jadi Chemistry, Bahasa Arab yang pernah jadi musuh ketat tu sebenarnya yang terbaik, sampai terdampar kat tengah-tengah Negara Arab ni belajar Chemistry.
Tak semua yang kita rasa betul tu yang terbaik untuk kita.
Kan Rasulullah S.A.W ada share satu doa,

"Aku berlindung pada Mu dari kejahatan diri ku sendiri"
Kita pun tak kenal diri kita ni yang sebenarnya siapa.
Siapa kita nak tentukan mana yang terbaik untuk hidup, kalau bukan Tuhan yang dah cipta kita?
So that's it.
Doakan lah semoga Siti Hajar Kamarulzaman mampu bertahan, habiskan sikit lagi Bachelor's Degree In Clinical Pharmacy dia ni..
2 sem lagi!!



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